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Post by youtometoyou on Feb 16, 2009 4:51:48 GMT
heres a few projects i did for school   Those are nice!  |
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Post by aha shake pepscake on Feb 17, 2009 19:09:57 GMT
Okay, I don't know if it belongs in this thread really, but I just recently started to carry a notebook with me and scribble down random thoughts I have during the day, and when I come home I make it all into one text (that makes more sense than my nonsense scribblings), and some day when I have enough of these random thoughts and fragments of my day I'll make it into some kind of book. It would be kinda interesting to read when I get old, I think, like a diary of some sort. (A random crap diary!)
Here's today's randomness:
So, the first thing I do when I get off the tram is light a fag.
Not because I want one, really, I just (sadly enough) think it looks cool.
I've already had about 10 today and I should save the ones I've got left (5? 7?) 'cause it's my last pack and I'm broke.
But I don't like crowds. Or, honestly, I'm terrified of crowds and the square is crowded as hell this time of the day.
Smoking makes me calm. I can concentrate on inhaling/exhaling and keep my heart from racing and my stomach from turning over with anxiety.
I can hide behind the cloud of smoke around me (although, it's bloody freezing and even without the cigarette smoke I would be breathing little smoke clouds. But it's not the same)
I haven't eaten since... this morning? I think I had some cereal this morning. And I feel kind of empty inside, and dry - that's my least favorite thing about smoking.
Dry, as if you've just woken up with a nasty hangover and just had a couple hours sleep.
Anyway, I walk slowly across the square, behind my cloud, and look at the big clock on the tower of the old post office.
Oh crap, half an hour until my bus leaves. It's too cold to stand outside, smoking and reading, but I really don't feel like going inside either.
I hate the bus terminal. It's huge and metallic and grey and concrete (modern architecture, is it?) and the people in there are just like that too.
They just sit, two and two, silent, dull, waiting. And they look at you. Nope, I can't go inside. I'd rather freeze my ass off out here.
At least people outside are in a hurry and are too busy to look at you.
I park myself outside the terminal, leaning against one of the thick concrete walls.
I'd rather sit down but the benches are made of stone and probably colder than the wall (stone/concrete? Any difference?) so I decide to stand.
I look at the people. A women hugging another woman. She says "You're legs are so thin!" What the fuck? Is that the first thing you say when you run into a friend?
But then I kind of get what she meant. The thin-legged woman really HAS thin legs, but the upper half of her body is like a huge balloon.
It looks kind of funny. Ugh, you can't think people look funny. Mean mean mean. She has nice hair though. And I bet the front of her is cute.
She really has the shape of a upside-down pear, or maybe a chicken leg.
I'm not thin either, not at all, but at least I'm tall so it balances out the fat. Is it better to be fat all over, or to be a thinlegged woman with a beer belly?
God it's freezing. I realise I'm actually trembling and I have to keep swapping hands to hold the cigarette, and keep the other one in my pocket.
It's pretty annoying 'cause I always keep the sleeves on my coat rolled up (I think i look shorter when they're down, so I keep them rolled up, balance the fat you know)
and the left one slides down as soon as I take it out of my pocket.
I decide to go inside, can't stand the cold.
Warmth, finally. Dull grey warmth.
I hesitate in front of the little shop with porcelain horses on the counter, should I buy something? I certainly can't afford something proper to eat, or a pack of cigs, but at least something to drink. I take two steps towards the shop and then remember I only have my VISA, and it feels so silly buying ONE diet coke with a VISA so I turn around again, check the timetable and go to find a seat.
15 minutes now. I could try to read a little, if I could just ignore the grey people watching me.
Well, yeah, I've got piercings, a Miles Davis bag, and I'm reading a weird book. Any problems?
I actually manage to shoot the nearest grey lady a pretty nasty look, and hah! she looks away. Success.
So. iPod or book? I don't really like listening to my iPod when I'm in a place like this 'cause even if I keep it at a low volume I can't hear ANYTHING except the music, and it feels pretty scary to know that if someone starts shooting people down with a machine gun or if the i'm-in-control-of-all-buses-lady announces that all buses are cancelled due to an earth quake and that my whole family unfortunately died - I wouldn't hear a thing.
So I pick up my book. It's a really good one but it fucks up my brain a bit. Time travel, death, philosophy, scientific theories, religion, illusions.
I thought I knew what I think but the book questions everything I've ever believed in so it's hard not to think twice before I settle with my old, comfortable beliefs again.
Is everything an illusion? What is 'everything'? Is everything matter? Are thoughts matter? And if so, can we build things from thought? We're all made up by electrons and quarks, and information/data is made up by zeroes and ones. What's the difference? Maybe it's all just the same and we can actually make something exist just by thinking of it if matter and thought are made of the same things. And if that's the case, maybe God actually did create the world (what is the world?), just 'cause he was the first person (person?) to think of a tree, or a lion, or water. Or, if we stick to the big bang theory, then who created this tiny speck that eventually - for no reason at all - exploded into a universe? For all we know, the whole universe could be a computer game. Zeroes and ones. Or maybe a tiny dot on the back of a giant turtle in someone's garden. Nothing makes sense. Sure, there's science and logic and theories about all of this, but really... it makes me dizzy. It's all just words. Language. Who invented language? Is language also matter? Maybe it was that god person, who obviously was terribly smart and invented trees and lions, who also thought (with his thoughts made of zeroes and ones) that there should be a way to communicate, and voilá - language. Zeroes and ones. Electrons and quarks. Electrons are funny. I mean, I've never really touched anything. Electrons repel each other, so if I put my hand on something - atom to atom - our electrons repel each other and I'm actually further away from that surface. So it's actually possible for two people to have sex, man inside woman, and he's actually being repelled by every atom inside her and he gets pushed away further and further for every move he makes. I've never touched anything. (What is anything?)
And then I get on the bus. It's warm. I fall asleep. Me and my balanced fat and my fucked up brain and my 5 or 7 fags and bright orange crazy book.
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Post by booradley on Feb 17, 2009 19:23:05 GMT
pepscake [I'm sorry, I don't think I know your name!], I really enjoyed reading that... I keep intending to start jot down my thoughts & such, but I keep thinking that not even I would find them very interesting. lol  |
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Post by Márcia on Feb 17, 2009 19:23:24 GMT
Peps, that's really good! seriously, i could imagine you doing all that moves. |
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Post by lozza on Feb 17, 2009 19:23:27 GMT
^ Molly that was amazing! made me smile! You really have got to make it into a book for when your older. - BTW , what is that book your reading? I have all those thoughts every single day, you know the 'why are we here? and 'what is earth?' questions. :-\ Karma when i can. |
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Post by aha shake pepscake on Feb 17, 2009 19:29:45 GMT
Thanks Writing crap down like that, the very second you think it, feels pretty good. It's called 'The End Of Mr. Y' and it's by Scarlett Thomas. It's one of the best books I've read, it's brilliant. It really does make me feel a little strange though, for a while I kinda.. thought I was in the book, and seriously started to feel dizzy from thinking too much haha. Everyone should read it though. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_end_of_mr_yI only have 2 chapters left and I don't want it to end  |
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Post by irishmick on Feb 17, 2009 19:33:16 GMT
yeeeees lol i was just thinkin that the other day as well, about everything and who made it, it actually started to hurt my brain lol it annoys me that theres no answer to it
like those who believe in god, but like was God around forever lol i mean how did god start lol
and then for those who believe in the science thing, how did every thing get here? how did space happen? and heres a qustion, scientists say space keeps expanding, what is it expanding into lol aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh lol
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Post by aha shake pepscake on Feb 17, 2009 19:45:49 GMT
i knooow, it's so confusing! everything's so random and unknown and weird.
and then there's all these thought experiments, paradoxes, quantum physics and mechanics, einstein, schrödinger and the Zoonomia.
she talks about all that in the book and I don't even understand half of it.
bah, i wish i knew everything and had a theory about everything.
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Post by lozza on Feb 17, 2009 19:49:19 GMT
I'm adicted to watching videos on youtube about project blue beam :-\
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Post by irishmick on Feb 17, 2009 19:54:16 GMT
the one thing i find hard to grasp is the day it al started lol the day everything just happnd, im not on about the earth and the formation of the planets i mean how was there nothing? and then sumthing? lol and what does nothing look like bahahahahahahah then i think some scientists say it was always here, which is an absolute mind bender cause we always believe that something has a start, so howwww can everything hav just always been here. lol i lied when i said i find only one thing hard to grasp scouting for girls getting a record deal still puzzles me  |
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Post by irishmick on Feb 17, 2009 20:00:17 GMT
ps, whats all that about lauren?
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Post by lozza on Feb 17, 2009 20:03:50 GMT
ps, whats all that about lauren?  part one: Part two : P.S i'll show you loadsa crazy shiz Mick. |
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Post by irishmick on Feb 17, 2009 20:19:38 GMT
i dont know about project blue beam but that guitar riff is pretty cool lol nah the thing is with them lauren, those things are pretty intrestin to watch and read about, cause i think everyone loves a good conspiracy theory lol if you watch that first vid its very clever in that it will show u somethin that may be true like the discovery planet clip then it will use that clip to support a theory thats probably isnt true and if u watch a few videos like that in a row, then its very easy to be drawn in and tricked so to speak. if u know what i mean. i noitced you cant read about it on wikipedia prob because of its lack of truth, but then the copnspiracy theorist wud use that and say there just trying to hide the truth lol ps, hope u nderstood what i was sayin and didnt think i was bein narrow minded lol |
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Post by lozza on Feb 17, 2009 20:22:35 GMT
^ yea course i do! I just like conspiracy! Like Hidden pictures on the us dollar etc etc ... oh and boheimian grove. Not sayin i belive any of it to be true, it's just interesting. |
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Post by irishmick on Feb 17, 2009 20:33:17 GMT
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Post by thefreelancer on Mar 1, 2009 16:51:54 GMT
Sorry Ive kind of been absent since christmas, new jobs and training for the past 8 weeks has meant no time for painting of HA for nearly 2 months. However, now Ive finished my training for my new job and finished celebrating passing everything that needed to be passed (painting drunk is rather quite fun though) I shall be doing a painting of something/ someone and have it finished by the end of March..or atleast hope to have it done. So yeah, absence explained, hope your all well |
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Post by Neon on Mar 1, 2009 17:25:25 GMT
Ah cool - your back! I'm always keeping on eye on this thread for a few certain people whose art I love - and your one of them |
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Post by Neon on Mar 1, 2009 17:33:11 GMT
the one thing i find hard to grasp is the day it al started lol the day everything just happnd, im not on about the earth and the formation of the planets i mean how was there nothing? and then sumthing? lol and what does nothing look like bahahahahahahah then i think some scientists say it was always here, which is an absolute mind bender cause we always believe that something has a start, so howwww can everything hav just always been here. lol I'm a fan of the whole 'In order for nothing to exist, something would have had to exist to define it, otherwise - what exactly would nothing be?' kind of argument. I always love hearing new views on it though - always on interesting subject! You know that part of your mind that plays images in your head? If your not thinking of any images - that's what nothing looks like. Or at least that's the conclusion me and my friend Cian came to after going over that question for a couple of weeks (we were really bored). scouting for girls getting a record deal still puzzles me Too hard - can't even begin to understand it |
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Post by booradley on Mar 5, 2009 21:28:27 GMT
I like the new poster so much that I decided to draw it myself. caleb's nose is too big & rather than scan, I had to take a picture of it, so the colours & shading on their faces don't show as much as they should oh well...  |
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Post by autobusas on Mar 5, 2009 21:29:24 GMT
It's beautiful! And very similar to the real one |
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